Your Existing Situation

“Outgoing but unpredictable and unstable. Likes things to go her way, otherwise she becomes agitated, indecisive, and fake in her activities.”

Your Stress Sources

“Feels empty and isolated from others and wishes to overcome this feeling. Believes life has more to offer her than what she was experienced thus far, and doesn’t want to miss out on anything. she purses all her goals and dreams, fearful that any missed opportunity will cause her to miss out on even more. Quickly becomes an expert in any field she pursues and can sometimes come off as overbearing and nosy.”

Your Restrained Characteristics

Current events leave her feeling forced into compromise in order to avoid being cut off from affection or future cooperation.

Giving more than she is getting back and feels misunderstood and unappreciated. Feels she is being forced into compromising and even her close relationships leave her feeling emotional distant.

Giving more than she is getting back and feels misunderstood and unappreciated. Feels she is being forced into compromising and even her close relationships leave her feeling emotional distant.

Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.

Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective

“Has a strong desire to contribute and influence others, but it can make her restless. she is driven by her desires and hopes. Enjoys a wide range of activities, but she may spread herself to thin taking on too much.”

Your Actual Problem

“Fears she will be held back from achieving things she really wants, leading her to search endlessly for satisfaction and become involved in activities which are pointless.”

Your Actual Problem #2

“Feeling held back and restricted from moving forward, looking for a solution that will give her more freedom and less obstacles.”

Hoi :3 

Tons of things have been on my mind lately, but I haven’t given ‘em a chance to take any kind of solid shape or form, because while I acknowledge this as my space, I was afraid to post my own opinions to myself. 

What’s been bothering me lately is the passive-aggressive behavior on social networking sites, particularly my own. I never actually encountered the term “frienemy” until recently, when a “friend” of mine posted a rant about “dirty non-committing bitches” on her facebook page.

Re-phrasing that; I don’t want to remember details. I’m not explaining this to anyone but myself, and I’m just going to give myself room to get what I need to say out before the negatives get to me. 

I know I wasn’t being a flirt at the party a couple of nights ago. If flirting involves talking to all of the guys at the party because I was comfortable to hang out with them, and if you tell me “it’s hard to explain” how I was flirting when you bring it up to me, I’m going to naturally call bullshit. 

I’m also naturally going to be upset when you air out your dirty laundry on facebook about a certain “dirty bitch who can’t commit, whom-you’ve-known-since-back-then” because you’re jealous that the boy you’ve been eyeing wanted to kick it with me that night. 

I’m sorry to ruin your night princess, but I’m not going to live by what standards you find acceptable, and I’m sure as hell not going to live my life by your definition of “committed” because I know I am a respectable woman, and people like me for how I treat them, or I wouldn’t have been blessed by such good people I am honored to call my friends. 

If you don’t like me, don’t let the door, or my friends hit you on the way out, cause jealousy just doesn’t suit you.

Still reading? aww shucks! :’3 if you’re wondering if I’m pulling this passive-aggressive shit too; I’m not. I didn’t feel like “airing out their laundry” by exposing their “good” names. They know who they are, and whom I’m talking to. 

I’ve never actually encountered a “frienemy” outside of middle school, but now that I have, you sure as hell aren’t staying :)

On a more positive note: 

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH <3 Vacation starts for me on the 18th of August! *cabbage patch dance*

To my dear friends who follow me :) thanks for letting me vent. Baggage ain’t easy ne? I promise I’m more of an upbeat person on a daily xD <3 but thank you for wanting to keep in touch. I love you guys :’3

  The lovely ex of mine has decided yet again to contact me, this time to let me know in a long-winded two page message that I “should get over him.” He has somehow romanticized my disgust and apparent disregard to his heart-felt ramblings and several invitations to befriend yours truly as a cry for attention, because I obviously must be still in love with him, if I haven’t taken precious time out of my day to block his face on my book. 

While his usual rants slide towards hysterically amusing to admiring stages of being annoying/obnoxious, he never fails to remind me of how much of an egotistical douche he is. It really takes that much skill, and experience to possibly pull that much shit out of your ass. Congratulations Diego, I can now recognize “pathetic” like a pro, when I see it. 

Examples of “Pathetic” are as shown: 

• “You know if you block me I can’t reach you in anyway.
  Is it me or you want me to like.. I don’t know feel bad for you? or love you? or care ? or say “I’m sorry” for something that’s not there anymore?”
• ”.. my true intent with you is not to play the games.
  But to get you over me Properly like I have you, so that in the future you won’t feel any need to miss or hate me, as either one might result in you doing something in achieving such state of mind’s desires.”
• “I also know that you screwed me to unimaginable Physical as well as Mental levels (which I still have to make up for to this day, Literally and Mentally) as you also believe I have you, and I don’t care.”
• “It would also fill me with security and pride in knowing something so huge (psychologically, since we never even met lol, it was always unreal) happened between us and we turned out ok from it!”
• “Please Steph, I’m afraid you might turn into a sociopath over the years if you don’t get over this properly, and you shouldn’t cause you’re capable.”
• “Forgot to mention, you reading these messages and ignoring me make me realize that you simply want to get me perked through willing ignorance towards a speaking host. In a way you’re showing me (by not blocking me if what you truly wanted was to not see me again) that you still care of what I think of you, and wanna shine before my eyes somehow. ”
• “Speak to me, see the side of me that you’ve never seen cause it wasn’t even born when we met, know that I’m NOTHING but just ANOTHER man, I’m no reason to hassle yourself with in nostalgic lonely moments.”
  

You’re the sweetest guy;thoughtful, and witty. But you fail to pacify any ache for passion or spontaneity. I feel like I’m going insane because I must explain how to keep me captivated, and you get sensitive because you believe I’m being ungrateful. 

I must tell you what to do to keep me. Frankly, it takes the magic out of being with someone; maybe I should stick with a partner who does well in body language or who can get a clue.  

I’m stuck in an unbearably/comfortably dull relationship.

We’d make the greatest friends—if we weren’t so horrible at it.